Struggling (or lack there of) with struggles

Slap in the face.

Punch in the gut.

Knife in the back.

Whatever you want to call it, I'm frustrated with somebody. This person continually fails me time and time again. I've watched him go completely against God's will countless times, and I'm really getting sick of it. I'm sick of the hippocracy, the lies, and the repeated failures.

This person is myself.

Well, that's where God's grace comes in, and I'm begining to realize how patient God is with me and how big his love is. BUT, I've also come to realize that step one is seeking after God's love, because just going through struggles just to become "better" is actually selfish at heart. I've stumble across this concept that I should live, do good, try my hardest, or whatever you want to call this function of life BECAUSE of God... because of what He has done, the love He has shown me, and that He calls me His son (1 John). I feel like I always try to present myself to God wrapped in my own false holiness and righteousness. Like I have to be purified by what I do all the time and call that "growth". I think that is where a lot of my frustrations are coming in. I'm still really trying to live under the law which is what Christ has set me free from and now I must live under grace (Romans 6).

I'm begining to find comfort in my humility, because it places me right where I should be, in Jesus' arms.